I think Ayesha has started feeling the "discomfort" of being THE Kakak. Or, maybe she had just began to understand that adik = sharing Mommy and Daddy with these two little creatures.
# This morning she cried, told me that "Adik buat Kakak" - Tertanya - tanya camne la adik yang kecik tu bole buat kakak ek? Si Comel buat Kakak? Turn out, she was disappointed that when she asked for her morning milk, Daddy was busy feeding Adik Adrina (We also call her Comel sometimes hehehe).
# Last night, kakak ketuk kepala Adik Adrina sebab adik was being breastfed by Mommy. Sigh. She said, "isk adik ni sibuk aje." Did it several times.
# There were many occasions where she would stand in a corner, in frustration, staring at both of us while we both were feeding the twins.
# Her sad sad looking face, and tears in her eyes when Mommy put adik- adik to sleep. Most of the time, dia pun akan scream, "Kakak nak Mommy, nak Mommy..." You know a few days ago dia siap mengigau menda ni, jerit- jerit, she just went histerical and there was no calming her. Dia stop sendiri after a while.
# Buat benda- benda 'nakal' such as buang pacifier adik, usik barang Mommy, barang adik dalam usaha nak dapatkan attention.
# She would rather destroy her toy when she was little, then let it be passed down to the twins. I pelik gak, camana dia boleh ada memori tentang the toys? But she knew they were hers... Hemm pelik kan.
# Whenever the 2 of us started paying MORE attention pada the twins, she'll come and hug us, and said "Ayesha saaaaaayang Mommy.
But despite all this, I don't think lah she doesn't love her sisters. She does. She just prefers if we pays more attention to her kot. Hehehe her dilemma of being the big sister. Mine, for having to split my attention. Entahlah, my fault kot kadang- kadang penat sangat nak layan dia... I tried my best, and I hope she doesn't feel like she'd 'lost' me. Sabar ye sayang, Mommy loves you, sama je macam dulu :-)